The end may be where our story begins

Without thought at least on my end, I am engulfed in feelings of every sense. 

Put in this very place for this time being to say these things that may never be seen nor erased. 

Every time we blink there is something missed, yes we must skip many a more then we are blessed to experience yet much is without consciousness until chosen to acknowledge. Legends believed are created in the present. Second-guessing our instincts empties our chance to seize the art of accepting what we truly are.  

The benefits of reflection are a given unless pre-conceived judgments start to cloud the motives of what one’s gut knows is best. Even here and now I have begun to back tab only to remind myself that is why scripture is proofread before published. 

When I "try" I am leaving room for failure, therefore I must just do. I would love to give the world adventure to be opened at their leisure. 

In claiming one's power of choice, the human mind can find peace as we may choose anything we wish to be. Committing to any decision with action in said direction summons the dream to become one’s visual reality. Everything is always changing. 

Here is the time I shall question the sense of my statements after they are written to disclose only those I am able to stand for as possible fact without defense necessary.

I have so many ideas that rush at once sometimes it clogs and none come forth. 

May I see only the glistening peeks from millions of ripples, as a sweet autumn sun beats down on a body of our making’s majority, and be reminded such spectacular surfaces are to keep our species functioning. The miracle of life might be to be. Simply being is a miracle if believed to be. 

A happy philosopher, peaceful civilian, my heart is warm with this feeling of contentment. How might I see further then I can reach, to really know the tips of these trees hold meaning to more then just me?

Learning is growing- constant evolving. Adjustment is life and here in this phase of mine I have found what I like, what I love, what I’m made of, what I’m here for. 

I have a voice of inspiration, encompassed with Love to share with this world. 

I till peace in my soul similar to that which is the sky holding the clouds as they roll. 

With that, I sprout as I’m shown to branch out in the direction of sun, go on as nothing is wrong whenever rain comes. 

As with misery, fret seems to be the best opportunity for us to know what we no longer want. 

I’m open to close, I’m closed to no open. I’ve broken these bones but no vows shall be spoken on deaf ears or for which I would allow to be forgotten with years.

Forces seeming greater then belief may come in to play and take the body, but as long as your faith holds tight to the positive purpose of everything you may indeed be ever happy no matter what’s happening.

I let the wind dictate my breathing if that means I may stay in sync with healing.
In becoming more of an adult I retreat to the safety of staying alert. 
I find benefits run deep through acts of participating in activities which stimulate my intrigue to it's greatest potential, allowing my focus to draw up my life's purpose like a bubbles to the surface.

Be everything that is contrary to deceit. Let no passing moment's patience fall victim to defeat. To be complete means to be unique. 
Your power lays in Loving.
Stalled for the time being I remind myself, stop thinking so much, just let out what is true for you and those who agree will align with divinity.
So as for you and me... The end may be where our story begins ? 
The end.

Be in the know.

If you would like to be in healthier shape, a great way to begin manifesting your intention is to always have water on hand.... Then next up, DRINK IT!!

Water just may be the true fountain of youth. Water flushes our bodies of toxins and keeps us hydrated which is essential to the functioning of all our vital organs, including the brain! Your blood cells in fact contain a lot of water and therefore can take much of the credit for insuring all the cells in your body are getting the necessary oxygen required to survive. I found confirmation at www.shapefit.com/why-water-is-important.html that, "Water is ranked second only to oxygen as essential for life." Here water is also considered, "..the most abundant ingredient in the human body through all phases of growth and development. Every system in your body depends on water to function."  

Water is a key component to your digestion and also helps to curb your appetite and keeps us foodies from over indulging. By drinking a full glass of water before every meal I'm able to prepare my body for consumption helping to stimulate the reactive nerves that send a message to my brain telling me when my stomach is full. It's said that the body takes about 20 minutes to process when you're full and trigger your senses, telling you that it's time to stop eating. Considering the pace in which most Americans eat and taking into account the portion size we still continue to serve ourselves, it's no surprise that we're able to over stuff ourselves in that extra 20 minutes it takes to signal our brain that we have eaten enough. Water seems to act as a buffer, prepping us to start relying our stomach's capacity sooner, helping to alleviate our chances of over consumption. Experts from studies on water in relation to weight loss reported at www.cnn.com/2009/HEALTH/expert.q.a/04/10/water.losing.weight.jampolis/index.html that, "People who drank two glasses of water 20 to 30 minutes before every meal lost weight more quickly initially and lost significantly more weight then those who didn't." Another experiment found that, "...people who drank water before meals ate an average of 75 fewer calories at that meal. ...if you ate 75 fewer calories at lunch and dinner for the next year, you could lose about 14.5 pounds! In addition, being even 1 percent dehydrated can cause a significant drop in metabolism..." Finally concluding that, "It is very difficult for your body differentiate hunger from thirst. If you don't drink enough water throughout the day, you may mistake thirst for hunger and eat more then you really need." It's encouraged at this same website that we eat water-based foods as a way to lower calorie density of meals without reducing portion sizes!    

Water is proven to account for majority of our body itself and of this planet's surface, so to me that makes water one of the most valuable resources in all of existence to the humankind. The website www.wellnessgoods.com/waterimportant.asp agrees with me that, "Water is the essential component of all life." Further explaining, "Healthy water carries nutrients, minerals... the building blocks of growth and healing energies; it disposes of waste and is constantly cooling, cleansing and purifying itself. Our bodies depend on water (as blood) as a catalyst... Dehydration is a common source of illness... Tea, coffee and alcohol all dehydrate the body, ththerefore if we take them we need to drink more good water to compensate... Good water is getting perilously scarce."

Conserving water is extremely important and being conscious of how we run or use our water makes a huge difference in the functioning of our planet. You might take this information as a challenge to be more considerate of the water wasted around you by reminding yourself that some people barely have enough fresh water to survive. Hopefully the gift of getting complementary water with each meal will inspire you to drink a glass before you go on to the more glamorous portions. This, just like any behavior, will take commitment and practice to become habit. Habits are formed through the conscious choice of deciding what actions we intend to take and then following through to manifest such desires.

Water has a huge impact on life itself as an obvious requirement for the natural growth of pretty much every living organism in existence, clearly making it a power player in your health as well. The more you choose to drink water the healthier you'll become. The healthier you become the better you'll feel. The better you feel the happier you'll be. The happier you are the more positive impact you can have on others. The more positive impact you have on others the greater life is for all of us. Start the flow, make the conscious effort to enhance your existence and be a contributing member of the global village we are each a part of during life on Earth. 

Think water, keep water, drink water.
..& remember, 1ove above all!

No way to lose because today I CHOOSE!

Today I affirm that I am free of all my past habits as I choose to act from a mindset based in my Love for the future I desire instead of fear from experiences I've already had. The past has passed. Worrying is a waste of time and mind so instead of dwelling in shame on things I have done that got me to this point, I am focused on the changes I can make in the present now to create the outcome I please in the unfolding moments to come.  I understand that I achieve less when I allow my mind to become a victim of stress and today I am consciously choosing happiness as my focus. I believe happiness is a choice and by deliberately deciding to feel how each of my thoughts effect my emotional state, I become aware of my power. I have the power to maintain all that serves me as well as let go of everything that pains me. My focused intentions manifest my perspective which shapes the content of my life. Today I am deciding with each new instant to consciously choose Love over fear! I am replacing every negative thought with a hopeful outlook, understanding we each move at our own unique pace and I am always in the perfect space for myself to learn a lesson I am meant to take in. Every single thing happens for some reason and I am growing to find the purpose of my place here in time by having a present mind focused on Loving all and fearing none. I am ready to be free, I am able to feel free and I am willing to choose the thoughts I keep in order to be free! Today as I go forth on this journey I am deciding to be guided by Love in all that I do- TODAY I CHOOSE WHAT I DO SO THERE'S NO WAY I CAN LOSE. I WIN WITH LOVE! I am in charge and no matter how weak I've been, I choose NOW to be strong & head in only a positive, healthy, progressive direction!   I am Love, I am Loved. 

I wish I could get through to you but what does wishing do?

I wish you cared for me, took your hearts lead instead of leaving me so tormented by this misery of loving one who ignores me so effervescently.  I wish you'd so adoringly dote on me the way I'd give to your majesty if you'd receive the precious passion I seep in ever action and royal word I speak.  I wish I could influence your stupidity in order for you to see there's no shame with me, nothing to keep hidden that I may think is too forbidden to work with in creating the dream come true that we both seek.  I wish you wanted to flee the weight of these past deeds shaping this fate that is so severe you can hardly even believe it's even here; wanted to be through with the pain enough to do a new regiment of truths letting all of your aches disappear with each demon you slay and new hoop you jump through. I wish this all could make sense to you.  I wish you'd let your conscience clear, let the idea that success is comes of what appears when the tests all say A no matter how the grade happened to get made and instead open the brain to letting Love lead the way which has no judgements or lack and commit to no turning back.  I wish you'd hear me in my statement that I understand your misery is anchored deep in the sea of a history controlled by being so free as to have minimal consequences given as long as you proceed with elegance, but that with the right ingredients in the present moment you will supersede this weakest link of your existence with your power to effectively accept you're in charge of the destiny that's set.  I wish you'd decide you can do this and go through with it.  I wish you'd admit that I'm worth taking the chance of opening up to me and finally find the security there is in a love like this.  I wish you would be brave enough to be here, show up; appear where you really want to be even though you're leery to trust anybody, and do this because you know the key in hitting the bullseye is to shoot away and learn from whatever may come with each new aim.  I wish you could find confidence that we'd never have need to compete as our complementary personalities may just possibly complete the puzzle we're each building with one missing piece of a partnership.  I wish that the constant revealing of each's inspiring production of greatest through the others support and deficiency of selfishness would give you positive assurance in the creation possibilities of our combined entities healthy function.  I wish you believed in me and knew how much I believe in you.  I've wished.. Now it's time to work for it and if the Love is meant to be we'll see, otherwise so be it and regardless which outcome peeks, I still wish you the happiness of peace as we proceed to live life to its fullest because we were always friends first.  143. 

Our wings require wind to fly.

I find peace in focusing my mind on appreciating the simplest things that make my existence here on earth possible... I'd love to share peaceful moments with you when you're ready. You're good enough to be my friend, you're stronger then you think my friend. I know you're scared, you fear yourself so fear itself is felt and will remain until you choose that Love is all there is and nothing else. I'm intimidating at first and then once you give into your faith that I may be here to help lead the way and there's no space for shame then the pain shall disappear. I understand and I'll take the way you behave with grains, and less personally, still I see a friend in need of the seeds I can lay. I have less then you think yet more then I know and still I can sink while I will grow. I appreciate you and the truth that you share, I'm proud of the new life that you're daring to make as your own and all that I'd like is to throw you a bone. We met for a reason, in the frankest of ways, I believe that my light is as bright as I shine today may it be to open a door that inspires you to explore just how deep you can go to get out of the hole you have been living in all alone. You're already whole for this moment that's now and you'll be fuller tomorrow as your gaurds are let down, or at least this is how I've seen honesty to be. I'm hoping you may begin to trust in me as your friend who admires your strength to admit what you see as weakness. Feeling you is unstoppable, our heart string is pulled thin with distance and still tight in it's connection no matter the witch that's put between it, even as I stretch with the flow, I feel it too when I let you go. When you think of me... Your spirit flies to meet my soul on wings of Love that you've never known, so if your brave today from one moment at all then let your heart go ahead and just call. There's no need to pretend that everything's fine, I'm aware of the dispair you hold in your mind. I'd like to guide your sadness to the exit, hold your hand and be silent, take our time- maybe write it and lay side by side as we inhale all that's left of the blessings we might forget without the other to spot it and point out what we miss. Does this make any sense? Can you try to confront your demons in front of my witness to lighten the load and turn curses into gifts of lessons we will check off our lists? I'm here. When, then, now, still, without judgements, open and loving, I have faith in what you're doing. I'm here for you friend. I'm proud of your steps and I'm a fan of your courage. A puzzle is never made of just one piece, if it was it would just be a picture. "Teamwork makes the dream work." (All Love)

30 days and counting to the "Miss California" crown....

The "Miss California" pageant is 30 days from today on May 11. I am "Miss Venice Beach" 2012, currently gathering sponsors who will back my journey to being crowned and give me a platform to touch an even larger number of people with Love. Please check out http://www.welovenice.com/ to see a little insider's view on how I got here and also please find yourself making a tax deductible donation by clicking the "sponsor" link at http://www.misscaus.com/ if your precious heart feels so driven to contribute to the cause :)

I am hardly surprised how much work goes into a venture of this type, yet now that I am officially involved in the world of pageantry, I definitely understand first hand the commitment level it takes to receive the honor of representing an entire state. I'm determined. I wake up each morning with a plan to take my physical, intellectual and even spiritual stature to the next level.
After various suggestions to expose the efforts I'm putting forth to make Venice Beach and all of California proud, I think keeping track of my activities in an attempt to see a transformation inspired by this opportunity could be something worth letting you in on. Hopefully you have fun, learn a few new things or just enjoy being a part of my team through out this journey if you have taken the time to click on this link. THANK YOU! Thank you for your support. Your belief in my abilities inspires me to succeed :)
So then, here we go... Today I took my first "Sweat Pilates" class (http://www.sweatepilates.com/) I am dripping without an once of cardio! I love the machine we get to work with and find the low impact, high resistance to be a perfect combination for a retired athlete's lingering ailments. This return to a fitness center felt dreaded at first and extremely difficult to even begin yet like we usually do, I feel completely motivated with energy after walking out of only a 45 min class! See, after celebrating my Aquarius birthday I traveled to NYC doing fit modeling and returned just in time to repack and hop on another flight. In no way am I complaining, I landed in Dallas mid Match and got the chance to reconnect with my southern roots.. I had an amazing visit with Granny and family including my cousin's 1st baby welcoming party and a stay in my older Sister's newest palace on the lake. I still feel blessed to have been given the experience of being a part of such special occasions and yet there was no shortage of delicious, fattening and unique dishes in middle America including a legendary "Haystack". From DFW I made the trip to Austin to collaborate on music at a church turned recording shrine, "Same Sky Productions" studio and took in the creative mix of unlimited artists on 6th St. and beyond for the SXSW festivities (http://sxsw.com/).
Here's the surprise; before heading to Houston for the next stop on my adventure of The Lone State I received an email referring me as a perfect candidate for the upcoming Miss California pageant.. Honestly, having only done one pageant my whole life at age 2, I took this news with a grain of salt and forged on to meet up with my step mom after years of distance between us. A delightful reunion, for the first time in our lives we actually had a weekend to bond just the two of us, touring the Kemah Pier down to historical Galveston Island. before I headed home to Cali. All the while mind you I allowed myself to excessively over indulge in classic Texas cuisine with absolutely zero exercise, so let's just say I came back "thick".
Well, as great as the homecoming was that I received with all my new "meat" and as fun as it was to find pleasure in food again after nearly a decade of tight dietary restrictions (due to allergies and illness from lack of intestinal peristalsis) I was worn out abusing Benedryl and 5hr energy's to stay active and alert.
With further investigation into the requirements for becoming this specific type of community leader in hopes of being crowned "Miss California", I read with each sentence another description of who I pride myself in being or thrive to become. The spark had aggressively ignited a flame lighting a path I have been drawn to follow and I proceeded to acquire the title of "Miss Venice Beach" since I find this particular area of my Golden State to be filled with culture, passion and consciousness, all of which are important factors in my opinion to living truthfully. I'm honored.

I've renewed my vows to health today and this is where I'm starting from! I intend to grow more attentive to detail on daily basis through workouts and willpower, with a mission mold myself even further into what is seen as the ultimate "Miss California" - Classy, Kind, Healthy and Wise. I have reached out to my gracious network of contacts in an effort to corral substantial financial support and am happy to report the momentous energy I'm receiving has propelled me to dive in head first.. Now I have one week to round up tax-deductible donations before the April 19th deadline. So, it's official. I am determined to tone up, get tan naturally and organically- staying aligned with my integrity to lead by example, find a stunning gown, stay up with current events, create a custom swim suit to strut in with heels on the stage of a packed autetorium, raise enough sponsor support to show community involvement and alleviate pageant costs.. As well as volunteer at the overnight special needs acting camp "Zeno Mountain Farm" (http://www.zenomountianfarm.org/) starting next week and be completely prepared to face 49 other contestants with faith that the panel of judges will see the power of my positive presence and believe in this light of mine I'm letting shine enough to choose me as 2012's "Miss California" (http://www.misscaus.com/) ... all in the next 30 DAYS! Here it goes: I'm ready to show the world what California is made of and hope you'll help me get there!
What do you think? Any tips to going about a month such as this ;)
1ove Above All.

Have you heard?

Just a few reminders I thought you may appreciate...

ANY OF THESE STATEMENTS YOU AGREE WITH OR IDENTIFY AS TRUTHS FOR YOU MAY BE USED AS AFFIRMATIONS TO HELP CREATE THE LIFE YOU DESIRE:

I do not say not.
I achieve less with stress, for stress only causes me to regress as it impedes my progress.
Worrying is a waste of my time and mind.
I must do to achieve and choose to succeed.
As I change my mind, I change my life.
To find peace I allow all doubts to flow out.
My belief in Love creates relief from all of the above.
I'm my own worst enemy when I doubt, as am I also my greatest hero when I believe.
Pain grows where fear is known.
Open communication is key.
Honesty sets me free.
It's important to enjoy each moment to the fullest because the present is all that's guaranteed to exist.
Who I am comes from where I've been, however where I go now comes from within.
We each create our own destiny so I trust I am where I'm meant to be and see that if I want to see things differently, I must start by changing the way I think.
Perception is reality.
Life is a series of lessons, the sooner you learn this to be true the less you'll repeat the worst of you.
Be exceptional, lead by example.

Be love and you will be loved.To be love is to exist, to give love is life's challenge.
I once thought I needed to be more to be enough.. I know today, I am exactly as I should be and because of this awareness my worth is going up.
Comparing myself to others is a waste as we will never be the same.
Embracing my uniqueness is what makes me truly magnificent.
I am in this place at this time for a positive purpose and knowing the truth of this lays in my perspectives.
By being open and honest in every moment I open the flood gates to enlightenment.
I create the world I live in through the choices I make.
By following my instincts I am validating my ability to know truth and demonstrate it's existence in the present.
I'm allowed to go at my own pace and have the right to align myself with others who accept my independence.
I understand that my presence influences those whom I am in contact with and I aspire to leave a good impression as a result of all my actions.
I declare today, I will no longer be victim to anything as I take responsibility for everything.
Instead of thinking nobody's perfect, what if we decided we all are?
To me being patient means to have faith.
There is always light at the end of each tunnel, arriving is simply a matter of forging on no matter how dark the path becomes.
Opening my heart to the unknown allows me to grow.
When I love, fear disappears.When I give, I am protected.
If something feels scary, realize by embracing this you are enabling your insecurities, instead create the experience as an opportunity to learn and you will feel secure with the place you're in.
Living my dreams of tomorrow is a matter of choosing what I do today carefully with focused intent.
Reality is a result of your beliefs, live happily ever after by deciding you are the master of your feelings.
Whatever I accept is what I will get. Accept only the best and you will get nothing less.
Everyone's pictures of what is the best are different, find friends who have similar viewpoints and enjoy sharing the best life has to offer together.
Honesty is like eating healthy, the better you eat the worse you feel when you cheat; similarly, the more you tell the truth the more lies hurt you.
Everything is always changing, if I stay the same I'll lose the race.
Survival of the emotional fittest determines who's physical efforts last the longest.
Asking for help shows bravery, courage and confidence.
Acquire the respect of others by being respectful.
Validate yourself and you will be accepted.
Deny denial.